The Blue Period
For my uncle, Maurice
I decorate your room with Japanese art—
lotus blossoms and cherry trees; over you,
one IV drips chemo into small veins; other lines
crisscross, and you are a Picasso, distended
and overstated; I wait each day for results.
The nurses know to tip toe around news,
use healthy words like remission, but I hear
the pity, dripping into those lines, each one
killing and saving you. I can do nothing
but hang pictures and get well cards, collage
your room in color. In one photograph, you
paint a sky on canvas, and I am two years old,
at your feet, waiting. Now, I walk the halls
in Oncology, listen outside each door—vapid
breath and beeping monitors, the steady chatter of death.
In my dreams, I write your eulogy, watch the congregation
at your wake: and there you are, the man in the photograph,
painting a sky the same shade of blue each time.
copyright 2008 A. Terzian
Not a Love Poem #27: Fallout
I wait for nuclear end,
bottom line marked in red,
the color of sky after
mushroom cloud stain.
I listen for hiss of language,
damage and fallout,
decision to destroy
as easy
as I do
and then quiet; all is never
the same—instead, there
is chemical pressure,
uranium and hydrogen
like you and I and this
dirty bomb we call love.